Today April 25, 2010 we will get together for
a family Sunday usual gathering. This would
have been mom’s 36th Birthday “again.”
I wrote this poem for my brother Ralph.
He and mom spent her last day together.
I thank you for being there for her.

Grannies favourite place to be, fishing.
I knew, it was written on your face,
Could you feel me by your side,
You knew this was your final place,
Our wasted moments as I cried.
We reminisced of times gone by,
For me it was each and every day.
I needed you to feel warm and safe,
And secure in some way.
Each time you opened your eyes,
The same question you spoke,
Please, take me outside,
I need to have that one last smoke.
Then asleep you fell back to again,
I questioned being your best friend,
For if I was I would comply,
Oh, mom now I need to cry.
You wake and talk about the camp,
The fishing stories at Stoney Creek,
Reminded me of our happy times,
Oh, mom rest you look so weak.
I knew you were holding on,
Wanting me to believe you’re strong,
Knowing me, I’d return that smile,
You won’t be with me a long while.
I watched you while you slept,
And prayed for you’re final breath,
This can’t be happening,
I’m feeling too much guilt.
Wake up mom and talk to me,
Just one last time, please
Open up those eyes again,
Let me know I still have my friend.
As your breath grew farther apart,
I stayed and held your hand,
I’m scared, don’t leave me,
This is going to break my heart.
I listened to the silence,
And there it was,
Your final breath you breathed,
This is cruel and just “not fair.”
I hoped that this wasn’t the end,
I still have a lot to learn,
I need you still here with me,
I can’t accept this as the end.
My memory reached for a fishing trip,
I wanted to go back to a time that was safe,
A place where I saw that smile on your face,
The calm waters of ole Mackey Creek.
We once knew this to be a peaceful place,
You returned there again,
It was for sure for the angel had come,
And left one last smile upon your face.
I lost my mom, she lost the fight
And I tried to say goodbye,
To my best friend in the world,
Never again I felt would anything be right.
We speak of you kindly, holding your memory tight,
And its days like today we wish you were near,
For we will celebrate your Birthday without you here,
It’s ok mom… it will be alright.
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